I write this on the one year anniversary of my heart surgery,
filled with gratitude for my healthy, beating heart
and my body, renewed.
On the treadmill this week I noticed that the stepping is still becoming easier as is increasing my pace. I am falling more in love, in awe,
more connected to this body that is still gaining strength and has carried me through much,
and is ready now for new endeavors and adventures.
This week, too, my wonderful hairdresser told me at an appointment that my ‘hair is back‘ and I felt like cheering. The effects of the anaesthetic ravaged it for many months, leaving it dry and frizzy, broken and brittle.
Suddenly, it is soft and shiny again. A small thing but not.
And I am more committed then ever to honouring this body, this life’s vehicle that I have been gifted. Fresh, wholesome, gorgeous real food hold all of the appeal.
And I will watch, too, how my emotions affect how I treat this body, and how they live inside me-
Earlier this week, I had a frenetic and crazed day where I was hardly present for a minute, consumed by all of the things I had to do,
and also feeling fearful and overwhelmed by what actually may be a new and beautiful opportunity in my life.
At the end of that day, after picking up Olivia one more time from a lesson, I jumped out of my SUV and quickly slammed the door shut before my hand was out,
crushing my thumb.
As I yelled in pain and ordered my kids to go grab a towel to stop the dramatic spurting of blood from underneath my nail,
I felt the literal power of this wake-up call to
S L O W D O W N,
and invite into my life a sense of willingness to open myself up to the future rather than grip tightly to a desperate need to master, control, and know.
I also read this week about the idea of building up core strength,
not in order to have a flat stomach,
but to make yourself stronger from the inside out,
a building up of strength and power from within – how I completely love that concept.
It is spring and many of us are feeling the invigorating and beautiful seasonal shift this week towards warmth and sunshine, possibility.
All feels new.
It is the loveliest of times to not only take stock of our gifts, but commit to honouring them with our continued gentle and fierce care.
This is your body, your greatest gift, pregnant with wisdom you do not hear, grief you thought was forgotten, and joy you have never known. – Marion Woodman